You Say You Want a Resolution, 2014 Edition

I don't think I did New Year Resolutions last year.  Or the year before. Because I kept finding myself writing the same things down:

1. I will write more!
2. I will be a better, more involved father to my daughter!
3. I will lose weight!

I have managed #2 pretty decently, I am told, but #1 and #3 have been much spottier in implementation.

That's usually a sign that other things are driving the bus (De had some good commentary on this, for herself, on her blog http://wonderlandpress.com/?p=6280). And that's sort of what has felt like is happening — it's not like I've had time to do those things, and the eleventy-dozen other things I have on my "I really want to / should / must do these things" list, or …

Well, yeah, there's those eleventy-dozen other things.  All of which demand time and attention to be done, and drive guilt and resentment when they don't. And we really are talking about things that I want to do — geneaological research, and drawing, and some web page stuff, and getting parts of the house tidied / refined / emptied, and gardening, and better attention to financial details and record-keeping, and more time to spend with Margie (and Kay) (and others in the family, for that matter), and watching a bunch of TVs and movies, and doing some gaming (both playing and GMing), and being more involved in stuff down at the church, and doing more volunteer work, and being more engaged in my career, and …

Yeah, those things.  All the stuff.

To paraphrase the below, I either need to lose lines off my To Do list, or else buy bigger days and weeks and months. Neither of which seems likely.

I don't have any particular answers or focused resolutions here, except maybe to stop being so internally self-critical about things. ("BAD DAVE! HOW DARE YOU BE SO WHINY AND SELF-CRITICAL ABOUT ALL THOSE THINGS YOU AREN'T GETTING DONE?! AND HOW DARE YOU BE SO SELF-CENTERED ON SO MANY TRIVIAL THINGS WHEN PEOPLE ARE STARVING IN SOMALIA?! OH, AND BY THE WAY, HOW DARE YOU NOT GET ALL THOSE THINGS DONE?!" Yeah, I know). And I have the sense that being a bit more organized about some things might help. All the other bits and bobs and advice (e.g., set reasonable and attainable goals) sort of follow from there. 

Though I really would like to write more. And lose weight. And all the rest.